theonewithin.

Not Planning Things

theonewithin — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 23:27:42 +0000

I have come to realize that things are a lot more fun when you don’t plan what you want to do. You may plan to get together, but you might not know what you are going to do. Sometimes things are a little more fun when they are spontaneous.

Narcissism

theonewithin — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 04:14:43 +0000

You know, I am not the most self-confident/loving person. I often feel insecure, especially in certain daily routines, but not always around certain people. Sometimes I am more secure with just a one on one thing. But sometimes not. I don’t know; it depends on who the person is.

But what if you had a really close friend who you feel totally comfortable around most of the time. But there are some areas that you aren’t. For me, it might be, I guess maybe I am afraid to express my full self. But why is that? This is the person who is our closest friend; whom we trust with our lives. Are you uncomfortable to be sentimental around them (because you know some people just are)? Are you scared to act like a total goofball. Why are are you so uncomfortable. You know that you are just a little embarrassed and shy. I think that you are afraid that you might do something which might make them feel uncomfortable (don’t take that the wrong way, it’s not what you think). But you know that they love you and you are just trying to show them that. You just want to treat them as if they were your sibiling. Because you guys are so close you are sibilings.

Just be more confident and secure with yourself. It’s not like your friend is going to think your weird. Just go with the flow. Don’t think about how you want every little thing to be. That just means that you will be more disappointed. But what is it going to take to get you comfortable with yourself? Is it putting yourself in uncomfortable situations. Love yourself and don’t be afraid to act all sentimental and serious sometimes. We are all human.

Wanting to Make Things Better

theonewithin — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 00:30:41 +0000

Do you ever feel helpless? Something has happened and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it? Specifically if your friend is upset. You want to make things better, but really there’s nothing to do about. Maybe there’s nothing that you should do. You feel bad because you friend feels bad. Their agony turns into your agony because you can’t stand to see them this way. It tears you apart-(it tears ME apart) to see them this way. Why can’t this just be fixed. Why isn’t there someone to blame. Sometimes things just happen and it’s not really anyone’s fault. Things happen that you can’t believe that you are just finding out.

OR EVEN WORSE!!!!!!!!!!! Something happens to your friend and you can’t relate you the situation because it’s never happened to you before, but yet you are hurting because you don’t want to see your friend suffer. You know that you have to let time do the healing, yet you are still impatient and angry.

WHY ARE THINGS NOT ALWAYS AS THEY SEEM ON THE SUFACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DO THESE MESSY SITUATIONS THAT PEOPLE DON’T TAKE TIME TO CAREFULLY LOOK AND MAKE A FALSE ASSUMPION HAPPEN TO US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In other words: Why do bad things happen to good people? OH YES!!!!!!! Here is the answer…BECAUSE IT’S APART OF LIFE THAT WE JUST CAN’T AVOID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH I KNOW IT SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish I could end all the suffering in the world. Why do we have to be patient and wait for things to heal? Why is there such a thing as patience????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY IS THERE SUCH A THING AS IMPATIENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If were all just patient we would be patiently waiting without stressing out.

It’s bad enough that we suffer ourselves. We also suffer when we see the ones that we love most suffer. You almost wish you could suffer for them.

Why Should You Care?

theonewithin — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 23:38:49 +0000

Is it possible to develop a habit of always caring what others think of you that you start to fear what your best friend thinks of you? Think about it. You can’t even be yourself around others without driving yourself nuts about what they are really thinking; thus, you develop the same habit around your best friend. But why should you care? They are not going to judge you. Otherwise you guys would not be friends. You are comfortable with each other. But OMG!!!! What should you do if you are driving yourself nuts because you are so afraid of what your best friend thinks of you?

First of all, why are you embarrassed in the first place? Is it because you really have no way of telling them how much you really care? Are you a “tough guy” and you just don’t show emotions? Why is it, then, that you are too embarrassed to honestly tell them what you are feeling? C’mon what’s the worst that could happen?

Also, why are you so scared when you fight? You know, there is the saying that you fight with the people that you love most. Makes yourself understand that your friend will understand that you are just being a human being. They might cut you some slack if you cut them some slack.

Another thing, have confidence in yourself and your friendship. If things were not meant to be then they would have never happened. Really, why are you so afraid of what they think of you. You know, you are just sensitve and get embarrassd easily.

Really to solve this whole thing is to put yourself in uncomfortable postitions. STAY OUT OF THE COMFORT ZONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

View a Different Perspective

theonewithin — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 22:29:54 +0000

Do you ever feel like there is no one else in the world who knows how you feel? Not one person! Not family-mom, dad, brother, sister, etc. Not even your closest friend who has held your hand through all of adversity. I don’t know. Maybe they do know how you feel. You just can’t seem to accept the fact they really know how you feel because you feel like your the only one in the world at that specific time who feels that way and no one else will ever know- you are too narrow minded- HELLO HYPOCRITE! LOOK AT IT FROM HOW THEY ARE TRYING TO SEE YOU- DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE! ISN’T THAT WHAT THIS IS ABOUT?!!!!!!!!!!. It doesn’t seem logical that a person can just stop what they are doing, thinking or whatever they are doing and immediately put themselves in your shoes. Why do you think this way? Because you have never truly believed that a person was able to experience the same mental torture, embarrassment, shock, symptoms, anger, sensitivity (I could really go on and on about this but I am not going to) or whatever you are feeling at the time.

Do you ever feel like at home, school, work, or somewhere you are on a daily basis you just don’t fit in- like everyone is watching you; you are the one that stands out. A FRIGGIN SQUARE PEG IN A ROUND HOLE!!!!!!!!!!!- on the other hand maybe that’s only with certain people. Maybe there are certain people that you do click with but you are just so focused in on the negative part of things you don’t stop to notice the good. Hey you could be so focused on the negativity that you may go and get yourself some CRACK, or HEROINE, EXTASY, VODKA, SMOKES OR WHAT ‘ EVA!!!!!!!!!! Or why don’t we just kill ourselves? WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT WOULD NOT BE LOGICAL!!!!!!!!! JUST GET OVER IT BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!! Well not everyone works that way. Suppose you are the kind of person who takes situations, who normal people would just shrugg off, like IT’S THE END OF THE WORLD. OMG YOU HAVE GONE MAD AND YOU CAN’T THINK STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT SHOULD YOU DO?????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well you could listen to a clinical therapist like they all tell you the same thing!

“Now sweetie was that the most logical thing to do at the time?”

You are thinking: “LOOK (whatever the person’s name is), I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU DO, BUT THAT IS WHAT I DO WHEN I GET THAT ANGRY-SAD (remember anger is not an emotion- it is tagged along with another one) BECAUSE OH I DON’T KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!! THE MOST LOGICAL PART OF MY BRAIN SHUTS DOWN WHEN I GET THAT EMOTIONAL AND I JUST DO WHATEVER I FEEL LIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You say: “Well, uh, maybe not.”

Let me tell you how the brain works. Let’s just say a person gets really upset well as soon as they reach the point of anger the whole rational part of the brain is completely blocked. The whole point is to prevent the person from becoming angry THUS THEY DON’T START THINKING IRRATIONALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WELL HELLO WORLD! Some people can do that!!!!!!!!!!! but YOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU CANNOT!!!!!!! You are just a natural person who LET’S THINGS FLOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT’S NOT AS EASY AS IT SEEMS…TRYING TO THINK LOGICALLY WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE BEING TORN APART FROM THE INSIDE!!!!!!!!!!

You know one thing that really hurts? When your friend’s friends are rude to you and have a bad influence on your friend!!! So then your friend says rude things to you- AND IT HURTS EVEN MORE THEN IF ANY OTHER PERSON WOULD SAY IT BECAUSE YOU EXPECT YOUR CLOSE FRIEND TO BE BETTER THAN THAT! YOU DON’T EXPECT THEM TO SAY THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ESPECIALLY THOSE ARE NOT THE KINDS OF THINGS THEY WOULD NORMALLY SAY TO YOU IF YOU WERE THIER FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why does every little thing in the world bother you? Why can’t you just give some people slack???

I don’t know maybe you suffer from PARANOIA!!!!!!!!!!! AND OFTEN THINK MASOCHISTICALLY!!!!!!!!!!

Lesson learned: Get to know yourself better